I guess I must have sown a lot of pain in my life. I see it now. I feel it now. I try my best to provide for someone. I have given up everything I have. But I can’t understand why it isn’t enough. I have put remodeling of my house on hold so I could pay for many things. I have paid for trips, bought so many gifts.
I guess I have been a terrible person to her. All I wanted was some companionship from her. For her to touch my face once in a while. Smile at me. Support me once in a while. Seems it is for nothing. Seems I have been wrong about so much.
I am not perfect. I am so far from it I don’t know what perfect is. I made mistakes. We all make mistakes. I try hard to overlook others mistakes and imperfections. But some days I feel like a target.
I have sown bad seed. Forgive me. Please.
In Jeff's Head 